I fare well living mostly in the night
When nobody says your name, nothing reminds me of you
and my thoughts run wild like the beat of a jazz drum
Free of fear and the chains that made our love
My eyes were once hazy, I spent too much time staring into the sun
We had our days but now they’re done.
I know this now
The moonlight does a lot to shape my skin,
Pearly white like the women who pampered themselves,
We always dreamt of living in a higher class, they will always win
I was born to wander you needed to redeem yourself
I could never stay anywhere long, but the damage would always last
My mind is unwell.
I know this now
The blood in my ears always sounded so sweet
You’d provide me with love like wine made from making me weep
I was never there, and you would be alone with only my body
My heart was hard like somebody I knew from my past
My soul was worth a dime, you never wondered where it was
But I could’ve been anything
you would’ve loved me no matter what.
I know this now
The days would last longer when I was afraid of you
That just meant that I would get to feel your love that much more
Come home at night so I could bleed for your worries
I was worthless and whimpering like a beat dog, but at least you were with me
The pain insisted I stay around and wait for you to love me sweetly
Crashing on to me like the wind and the waves
But things would always remain the same.
I know this now
I know that winter will always come back to me
And when they hit me I’ll always feel the same
Harsh and unsure of myself, it’s always hard to leave
If I last til spring that only means I’ll have to go through it again
And one day I’ll be dead and gone because it’ll come so cold and so miserable
I won’t be able to bear it, even when I know spring is coming around
I know this now.